Jet'aime

June 15, 2013 Saturday to be exact. Nine days na akong nandito sa Singapore. Last year nine days din akong nagstay dito but everyday was just full of fun, those nine days were memorable, it’s a full vacation package  together with Karlo and our family.

But now it’s different, nine days na akong naghahanap ng work, stressed and pressured. I only have two months to get a job, I wont gonna exit to Malaysia just to have another 30 days stay. 

Imagine, I’ll wake up at 8 am and start sending resumes to all possible companies that would hire me and walk in after lunch. Naalala ko pa nung unang beses akong nag walk in, formal na blouse, slacks at take note 3 inches open shoes, aware naman ako na puro lakad dito sa SG pero tiis ganda nalang kase panu kung may mag interview sakin, atleast ok outfit ko. Pero di ko naisip na ganun kalayo mga pupuntahan ko that time. Umuwi akong puro sugat sa paa at mga paltos at wala manlang nag interview sakin kase hindi ako marunong mag chinese (mukha lang chinese) wala akong pass, hindi rin ako permanent resident at isa akong foreigner. 

Hindi pala talaga ganun kadali, hindi ko kabisado ang buong Singapore, dumedepende lang ako sa gothere.sg pag nawawala ako tsaka lang ako magtatanong, trying to get their accent and trying to speak Singlish but some will just say “NO ENGLISH!” hay.. pano na ako diba? nawawala na nga ako wala pa akong mapagtanungan, buti nalang may ilan na nakakausap ko ng maayos. Bukod dun, walang palamig sa paligid, wala akong nakitang nagtitinda manlang ng buko juice, uhaw na uhaw na ako. wala akong choice kundi bilin na ung iced honey lemon tea  na nakita ko, “ANG PANGIT NG LASA!” pero dahil sa uhaw ko ininum ko padin, wala eh, wala nanaman akong choice.

Halos 30 companies ang inaapplayan ko sa isang araw, nag wa-walk-in sa hapon, kung kelan tirik ang araw. Pero syam na araw na nakakaraan pero wala padin ni isang nag eemail ko tumatawag sakin.Bakit kaya ganun, samantalang sa Pinas wala pang ilang araw nashortlist agad ako. Am I not competitive enough? o sadyang di lang para sakin ang Singapore. Sabi ni kuya “Tyaga ka lang, go lang ng go. Ako 2 mos bago nagka work, si kuya ron mo 3 mos bago nagkawork si ate Ampy mo halos 3 mos din bago nag ka work” 

But not just because I’m frustrated for not getting a work, but also because of the people I left in the Philippines like Karlo, nakakahome sick totoo pala ung home sick. Ok lang sana kung magkasama kami dito tyatyagain ko talaga mag apply kahit dumami pa sugat ko sa paa, but it’s really hard to be away from your love, eto palang ata ung time na nagkalayo kami ng matagal though naguusap naman kami sa facebook, skype at wechat iba parin pag nahahawakan at nakikita mo ng personal ung mahal mo. 

I talked to him last night, sabi ko kung di ako palarin magka work hindi na ako mag eextend, uuwi na ako ng Pinas, nakaktawa kase may magandang offer na sweldo ung friend ko, mas mataas pa sa huli kong sweldo sa Alta the thing is call center parin. Sabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi na ako babalik sa call center since graduate naman na ako, pero anong magagawa ko? Un ang praktikal na trabaho sa Pinas na magpapasweldo sakin ng ganun. OO sasahod ako ng 70k isang bwan dito sa SG hindi ko un kikitain sa Pinas, pero ang hirap naman atang magtiis na malayo sa ka mahal mo, andito nga ang kalahati ng pamilya ko pero world war 3 naman ang peg nila balewala din.

Sabi nila pag pumunta ka dito sa Singapore para kumuha ng trabaho dapat kasama mo si luck. Kung para sayo to para sayo.

PS.

BABALA: Kapag nandito bawal magconvert ng gastos from sgd to peso. 

“Measure the love not the distance….”

I never imagine that we will be in this kind of relationship but I hope and I pray that we can make it through. It’s been a while since we became partners, like any other couples we’ve been through a lot. Fights… Arguments… Misunderstanding and Disappointments and we face those trials together, unlike now we’re miles apart… I hope we can make it… 

I don’t know when will I see him, hug and kiss but I’m sure he will be in my heart. 

The people you thought your friends, turned to be the people that you used to know.

People come and go… that’s inevitable, just gonna live with it.

too bad you treat them as your friends (so called)

WoW!Am I dreaming? I checked my grades and FINALLY I’m graduating… Woohhh hOO!!! Thank you Lord!

FLASHBACK…..

2005, Finally, high school is over but wait! College awaits :( pero dahil ayokong magaral sa University of Rizal System ( URS ) and I didnt take an exam in PUP I have to stop after high school. I decided to work right after high school (amazing) as early as 16 yrs old you already see me roaming around Ortigas and Makati looking for a decent job. Since I’m confident enough that I am good in English I applied to all call centers I know. Rejections… rejections… full of rejections.. but I dont quit… I never get tired hearing those lines ” Thank you Ms. Arcos, we’ll just gonna call you ” for me those lines means rejection. I didnt passed, I failed but I never lose hope.

With my fascificated birth certificate (recto made) (ofcourse I’m only 16 that time)  I almost jump outside the building when the HR said in a slow mo) ” You are hired! We’ll send you a text for your job offer. Congratulations!”

Oh, well finally I can buy what I want, Imagine my first pay check is 13,000 for half a month. I was so naive and so excited I keep on telling to myself that I love this job, my batchmates were still in college but I’m earning their salary once they graduated from college, isnt great and amazing?

I move from one center to another (but I’m not a hopper) but my Brother move out from the seminary to help us in all our expenses, so he asked me to stop and go to college, I didnt hesitate, I resigned.

I get bored, I guess I feel that I know more than my professor who always ask me to make exams for my classmates and let me report every week. I am not that smart , I just know how to speak straight English (that’s given, I’ve been in a call center for more than a yr) for them that’s wisdom. So I asked my brother if I can transfer to a University, where I can enhance my skills and add knowledge and wisdom. I told him that I will go back to work for the mean time while waiting for next sem, he agreed. Well, thank God I got accepted in University of the East. I can feel that I am really a “kolehiyala”

I want to graduate from college, I also dream to wear that black toga one day and at the same time I dont wanna quit earning money. So what next? I put them together and end up being a Hard Working Student. Work at night and study during daytime. I became weak, it’s all given with the lifestlye that I have. But again I dont quit. Sleepless days.. sleepless nights… things gets harder each sem, I have to quit college again, I choose to work, with that I can help them with all our expenses. My brother keeps on convincing me to stop working after reffering me to his company. He said he can manage, I can go back to college without working. I followed, I resigned again for school purposes.

I guess I was a pure college student for 1 year (two sems) then my brother went to singapore, and I was thinking I can go back to work while finishing my degree. Ok, he didnt know about it, my mom and I hide it from him.

Even if I lack focus on my studies, I never get a grade of 5. I’m still happy that even if I’m facing the rudeness of life I can manage to maintain my grades, not that high unlike the grades I got from my previous school but atleast I passed each sem. My course demands a lot of time and a lot of physical activities, Imagine, I only got 2 hours of sleep each day but I have to attend meetings and shoot. I have to travel from Antipolo- to Ortigas- to Manila each day (thank God there’s saturday and sunday) well, sometimes weekends still demand for my presence. I’m not consistently strong, things get harder. There are times when I lose hope and faith but then again I dont quit.

“I stayed in college for 8 years WTF???!!! seriously??? It took me 8 years???” but I realized that t’was my last sem. I was so nervous, I prayed for this, I wish for this and finally college is over. April 18, 2013 mark the date. I will no longer have sleepless days, sleepless nights and zombie moments. I have that paper that no one can take away from me and you know why tears roll down my face? I can quit my life in a call center.

I can start a new life again, I will treasure all the hardships I’ve been through. Those are trials, God will have that perfect moment for you so just wait and DONT QUIT, darkness may come but keep walking, dont stop believing because you can only see the light at the end of the road. :))

CONGRATS to me!!!

I am now a Degree holder :)))